It was when I moved from the prairies to the lush west coast of Vancouver Island that I received the teachings that here, Eagle represents TRANSFORMATION. We are reminded that just like Eagle we too can take flight and transcend who we thought we were and all that we thought we knew. Journeying with this teaching touched ancestry, identity and the great mystery of origins. For those that are willing to lean in to that last sentence, there is star dust sprinkled to guide the way to a much deeper dream, but for the rest, let us continue on with this dream at hand.
You see I am a Nomadic Dreamer. I see and feel the earth shifts, sensing the dreams unfolding around me. I see the connections between stories and experiences, bridging them together. This is why I am able to guide others so well in their stories to see the bigger meanings that are unfolding.
It was January of 2019 that I came upon a story about the Eagles across the island being affected by a respiratory virus. This story vibrated through my space. I could feel the urgency and the importance in this story that was asking us to take note. With the great importance of this bird as the sacred messenger I wondered what this meant and knew that it may be a prophecy unfolding, without the understanding of what was being shown. I looked towards my own story and the over lapping of dealing with my own sudden lung issues. I knew I was being guided to go on a Shamanic journey.
I delved into my lungs and began to feel into what was behind the symptoms. It took me to grief and I went into the story of my fathers death when I was five years old. I explored this story and connected to his own medical journey before his passing. I allowed myself to grieve here today from something that I was unable to grieve the yesterdays. I journeyed to my teenager years and watching the loss of my brother to a world of addiction and a transient lifestyle. I allowed myself to grieve the loss of the brother that I had known and looked up to. Acceptance was a big piece of this story, to accept that he came here for a human experience and that his journey was his own. I laid in bed for days feeling the grief wash over me. Allowing the tears to flow and the pain to wash up and release. I then made way to explore my identity and began to transcend who I had known myself to be. I remind you that the stories that unfold in the form of our daily experiences are meant to give us the journey of where we are being guided to learn, to grow and to heal, this is what a true Shamanic Journey is.
Shame and guilt... this is where I was guided next. I delved deep into the depths of my experiences and was asked to shed shame and guilt and to heal the core of my experiential stories, the depths of my darkest shadow. This was among the most difficult experiences, yet freeing, that I have journeyed through.This touched the deepest shadows of my family's stories, tied together like a string on an explicit and intrinsic web. I was diagnosed with COPD, a degenerative lung disease and I knew that I needed to go deeper so that I could heal to the depths of the stories of my ancestors.
I delved into intensive breath work with a trusted facilitator and went deeper then I had ever gone before while opening my heart and breathing into my cellular memories. I released so many, I could feel them bubbling out of me. I touched the healing of my Ancestors, releasing cultural genocide, the trauma of residential schools, loss of identity, the death of ones Spirit. I breathed life back into me, connecting deeper to myself and Source then I had ever connected in this lifetime. I touched the essence of my true self and allowed myself to feel the depths of the grief that I carried in my lungs, the loss of the deep connection to the essence of my Soul. I excepted, I released, I connected. My lungs began to heal and today I live symptom free, and perhaps disease free.
Spirit said "Go, guide others now" and I set off.
Shame and guilt... this is where I was guided next. I delved deep into the depths of my experiences and was asked to shed shame and guilt and to heal the core of my experiential stories, the depths of my darkest shadow. This was among the most difficult experiences, yet freeing, that I have journeyed through.This touched the deepest shadows of my family's stories, tied together like a string on an explicit and intrinsic web. I was diagnosed with COPD, a degenerative lung disease and I knew that I needed to go deeper so that I could heal to the depths of the stories of my ancestors.
I delved into intensive breath work with a trusted facilitator and went deeper then I had ever gone before while opening my heart and breathing into my cellular memories. I released so many, I could feel them bubbling out of me. I touched the healing of my Ancestors, releasing cultural genocide, the trauma of residential schools, loss of identity, the death of ones Spirit. I breathed life back into me, connecting deeper to myself and Source then I had ever connected in this lifetime. I touched the essence of my true self and allowed myself to feel the depths of the grief that I carried in my lungs, the loss of the deep connection to the essence of my Soul. I excepted, I released, I connected. My lungs began to heal and today I live symptom free, and perhaps disease free.
Spirit said "Go, guide others now" and I set off.
These past five months I have been a guide to a group of Women on a private healing Moonlodge journey where they have shifted their lens of perception, they released their guilt and shame and they too touched the essence of whom they are. This journey comes to a close this month as we end in the cycle in Metamorphosis, the moon of transformation. This moon is about a willingness to change and transform, it's about reaching a new season of our life.
Just as when Eagle, the messenger, showed up a year ago to bring us a prophecy, my Dreamer is once again seeing the bigger story unfolding in the dreaming, seeing the connections on the great web and weaving them together. So what is it that this prophecy is saying...Transform the condition that is shame, guilt and regret. You see when we live in shame, guilt, regret, we punish ourselves, we punish others. We create separation and division, we live in fear. When we free ourselves from these conditioning we except our experiences, allowing the motions of grief and ultimately returning to a place of connection on the great web, in balance with nature and in true connection to the essence of who we really are and what is truly important, connection to Source, as Source. We know that it is in isolation that we touch silence, all of the teachers before us and around the world speak to the importance of a practice of silence... because it is through silence that we touch connection and live in connection.
So except isolation and silence, Walk in nature, breath, meditate, drum, sing, dance, dream, chant, garden... whatever it is that brings you to that sacred space, touch it and then come and connect.
Dream beautiful dreams my friends.
Serena Winterburn
Incredible and beautiful thank you
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